I've been thinking a lot about regret lately. Thinking of things I've done in the past, how they've shaped who I am, and whether or not I would do things differently if I had the chance. Past boyfriends-- i am fond of the memories but could never go back and wouldn't want to. Mostly I regret not spending enough time with those I care about, not letting them know how much they mean to me. We are packing for our big move to Boston. Memories of my grandmother are everywhere. Little knickknacks she gave me... She was always thinking of me. I wish she were here now. She would be worried about my safety in Boston. Probably try to get me some pepper spray or special door locks. She would be so proud of me now, telling everyone that we are going to "Harvard" and how we were going to figure out how to fix her.
Listening to the Eagles now. Reminds me of my brother. I really treasure the years we lived together in pgh. I miss him. Wish he were coming out to graduation. Feel like calling him now, but he and the kids are probably in bed :) I am proud of the father he has become. Hear he reads the Nanny book I got him all the time. That makes me happy. Think I'll call him tomorrow.
Drinking Wilcox wine from the winerly near my mom's house. It is sickeningly sweet, but reminds me of my mom, who by the way, i also miss...
off to more packing.
Posted by Jamie Alton at May 18, 2005 12:01 AM