I am sitting here trying to pick out my medschool courses for next year, my fourth and final year. I have to choose what i will do for the rest of my life based on the few experiance I have had . I feel i should do surgery but I hated it while I was on it. I wish i liked ortho. I am a good enough canidate to get in, but I do not want to be a bone cracker, a cast jocky. I have to just pick something and go with it. I just don't want to hate what I will be doing for the rest of my life.
The morning is warm. Life always looks better in the morning, even if I am tired. i don't know why that is. Mabye my brain resets over night. I have the cold play song "clocks" ringing in my head. Strange how smell is the strongest memory catylist, but sound is a close second.
I have been thinking a lot. I think, "mabye because I was never and out of controll teen or a crazy college student I might have missed out on something." I went to a bar tonight at a young ladies invite. After walking down to the bar, I found I could not find them. So hear I sit staring at my computer screen. I am 27 almost a doctor, but still a loser.