Have you ever noticed when someone say mabye, it usally means no?
So, last day in the ED.
At least for a couple of months.
Then off to a small community hospital. Not sure what i think of that....
Things don't go as smoothly as in a big acidemic center.
Was informed that my wife bought me the new IPOD I wanted... back to dancing to work.
We have two weeks of VK in a month. One week with J's parents and the other week is still up in the air. Suggestions?
Slept late today, got out of work at 2 in the morning and have to go back @ 4..... I hate days like this, I don't feel good enough to do anything during these days, except sleep.
J wants to put up the x-mas tree tommorow, as always i don't really care, but it makes her happy. Will do some x-mas shopping as well this year, but I am just not really into it this year, not sure why. I don't have any really good ideas for anyone that may be part of it.
Oh well, this was a boring entry........ off to work soon.
Just heard a story on NPR about war bloggers. It was very interesting. It is amazing to have a front row seat on a persons relization that yes in fact people do die, and suffer and hate and kill. To be republican I think you truly have to find ways to aviod seeing and feeling others pain. You really can't take the stances they do without shutting that part off or at least dampaning it.
I am on my own front line of suffering.
I continue to be in the ED. Bring me your sick! Your poor! your neurotic fools!
I find myself thinking sometimes, I must admit, when someone comes in with a non-emergent emergancy at 2 in the morning, saying something like "my heads hurts." I feel like saying, "so does mine, probably worse then yours and I am not coming into the emergency room complaining." I think people really have never learned what a real emergancy is. I have come up with a method of triage. If your complaint has been going on longer then a week, don't come to the emergancy room. Go to your doctor. If you are alive with it for over a week, it in not an emergancy. I am nice to them. I try to help them by being soothing. But hear this! People! teach your children that every little pain every little snifful is NOT AN EMERGANCY! You get old! Your body hurts sometimes! Thats life!
Dont get me wrong. I am nice. I do treat them, i do have compassion for them and i understand they think what is going on is importan. But really. Stay home and take some tylenol.
I feel better now
I have never had one of there burgers. I think I will have to fix that.
MIMP=minor intervention multi-purpose.
Where I was in the ed. It is where you go when you skin your knee.
Suprisingly it was my best day in the ED yet.
I stiched to lacerations up. Been about 10 months since I did that. Dang I was nervous.
Incised a barthilon cyst. You guys know what that is? It is an infected cyst in the wall of the vagina. Ouch! Puss just poured out.
I forgot how much I like doing procedures. I enjoy using my hands.
Been watching a lot of scrubs. Bought the 1st and 2nd season. The music in that show is great. Currently listening to colin hay. He sung "Down under." It is so strange to hear his voice years later. He sounds good and actually sings a lot of good stuff.
Was in the ED till two last night. People come to the ed for the dumbest things. Like, "My legs have been hurting for 6 years and I thought tonight at 1 in the morning would be a good time to finally get it addressed...." Soo dumb. GET A PRIMARY DOCTOR! GET YOUR ASS WELL TAKEN CARE OF! I know you think your problem is the end of the world But I am not going to solve you back ache at one in the morning in the ED. Sorry, life does not work that way. We also get studies for the DUMBEST STUFF! ED docs do not really know how to practice medicine. The do studies for anything. Screw actually taking care of the pt and not wasting money scan the fucker!
Sheesh!
Sorry I feel better now.
Something about the smell of tea is soothing. Well On my ass in front of the computer again. I have to say every time I start a research project it is always a bigger pain in the ass then i thought it would be. At least my mentor this time is a good one. Jamie is off hanging with friends. Gonna try to get a poker game together this friday and play with some of my friends. I need to work, but istead I have been reading all day. Finished "feast of crows." I was kinda sad there is gonna be another book and I have to wait a full year for it.Time to find a new escape.....
A friend of mine noted recently in her own Blog, that generally she only posts when things suck. (not her words). I find that I think I do the same. Strange to think.
I am still profoundly unhappy.
Why?
That is not to say things are not better. I love boston, I am happier at work, I love my house. I am a doctor. I should be happy no?
I am not.
Why?
Wish I had a good answer. The best I can come up with is existential angst.
I have found a person at work who i think will be a good male friend.
He is a year ahead of me. I worked with him in the ICU. He will be in th ER with me as well this month.
Reading two new books. Need to be reading med stuff, but I am not.
The books are:
Salt: It is a history of the importance of salt in the world, in world commerce and in life. We tend to forget there where WARS fought over salt.
The other, whos title escapes my mind ATM is the new Geroge RR martine fantasy book. I don't like reading fantasy normally, (I perfer scifi) but this book and series is good.
I think i will feel better if I start excercising again. i think that is part of the problem. I must try harder.